"My wishes were my stuff that belongs to me how I divided them into three with my three kids and the other thing that was really helpful was thinking about my grandkids and I have a life insurance that I gave onto my grandkids if anything happens. I wrote all this up all my wishes and the house and if something happens to me. So, I did all this because I'm really scared what may happen to me. You know, I've accepted it, if I'm going to go, I'm ready to go. Got all my outfits, what they need to dress me in, got my moccasins made and my shawl, and my crystals that I can take with me. So I prepared, but I'm still scared."